Exam Time Again~

Yeorobun~ Annyeong haseyuu... haha..
How are you all?
I just want to say Hi!

I just missed blogging soo much..
and kinda like 'not caring about the time' at all.. 

Next week we're going to start with our Midterms..
for 2 weeks.. It was supposedly only for 1 week..
But the girls in our college complained..
Coz I think some or most of them had 2-3 exams in a day..

I'm really sorry my fellow mates~

Salamu alaikum~
I've been thinking this following messages while I was studying for my final exams in PE..
and I hope that they'd read this someday.. I hope that this'll reach to them.. Somehow..
If they would be okay with my thoughts.. ;(

I would always think before or whenever I want to say something to someone..
;( Even though it's just a simple and maybe thoughtful one question..
;( This makes me a loser.. really.. ;(
Like a simple "Are you alright?"
I don't like to make misunderstandings..
They may not understand me after all..
But if it's for them to learn more english I'd be willing to do more..
If I could have been just a bit more approachable to them,..
Yes, Now I just admit everything.. I'm also the one who's at fault..
;( I'll try to make it up to you.. somehow..
I would never know if I won't try..
But then this second thoughts would tell me;
Why am I doing this again?.. ;(

You might think that I'm ignoring you.. No it's not..
I don't know why.. I really don't know why..
I don't want to be like this forever.. ;(
I'm really sorry for everything~ ;<

Well I dedicate this to my fellow mates in my Prep year 1st sem..
Hope you won't hate me forever~
I won't mind, maybe, but as long as I know what you think about me..
Please I am also wrong.. I admit that.. There's just something I don't understand
WHY I feel like this towards you guys..

Yes I see you in the hallway, Sorry for not greeting you with any smile,
shaking our hands, or a salam.. This is bad I know..
This is really getting a habit and I would really like for it to stop..
But then I would also like for some other times
not to see you.. you know.. There's this weird feeling in me
that keeps on telling me don't approach them~
But I would also feel that it would be good if we're just like,
how everything was like during my HS.. 
*sigh* everything's not as it was as before..
I miss those times!

Gotta review now~ >w<
Wish us luck... ;>>>

Sadness

SALAM!!
UGHH!! Great!!
Why the heck does she hafta remind me that?
I mean I WAS in a very bad mood!!
Alhamdulillah! *Thank GOD* the swimming pool or ang pagbabad nmin kanina sa tubig ang nagpasaya at kinalimutan q ang ngyare.. >.< WHY??
Nande??? Is there something she wants me to do?
Doesn't she know when a person's not feeling good..
She could ask me.. not tell EVERYONE about it..
I'm sorry.. but I'm not the type who would like anyone to know my suspicious *maybe* or anything I don't want anyone would talk about! I'm sorry.. really..
So now that I've kinda learned about it..
I'll try to stop the habit of talking things that would also not feel good for them if they would do the same as I did to them.. Just like they say; Don't do unto others what you don't want others do unto you!
Is that it? correct? Hmm.. I was thinking another proverb..
I think that.. If you do something not good to someone, that someone may not be able to do it unto you but others would do what you did to someone.. get it? LOL! Just tell me if you do.. XD
So I AM really feeling bad...
I was not in the mood to talk about it..
If only she knew..
And I REALLY HOPE she wouldn't talk to my parents about it..
I REALLY DON'T LIKE IT!!
It's driving me crazy..
These days I've been having this funny feeling..
Feeling that something's missing!!
As if there's a very VERY big gap!
I dunno what exactly it was..
But it keeps my stomach uneasy..
Always having this butterflies..
And my heart.. It's as if telling me that you should believe!
I dunno what exactly!!
I'm not with the people I'm used to be close with..
But I got these uneasy feelings with them..
I'm so sorry!!
I wanna scream it out!!
They wouldn't understand..
I wanna scream it out LOUD!!
If my JASSNEYAANAH could just calm me down..
They only know what would calm me down..
Even those few months we've been together!!
THE HECK!! I miss you guys!!
*crying in here*

Called my aunt today.. It was soooo good listening to their voices!!
As if I was just there beside them!!
I could just imagine myself there with them..
It's like i already made a bond that I don't want to let go!!
But something's telling me to go back!
TT-TT No one in this place right now would understand me..
Except my mother and Jassneyaanah!!
*can't find my towel anywhere in this room.. Need one asap*